I felt such a strong connection to the motherhood inside of me, ready to let this child go and to embark upon the quest of self-affirmation.
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Gui and I shot this impromptu video with me walking into the ocean in full costume and heels, following the light around El Matador. Thinking about growing up, the path of what you can do becomes narrower and narrower as you get older, but now knowing this narrowness is guiding me to my true path gives me hope. Once Gui (the director) called it a wrap, I felt like I was able to accept the death of innocence in my life for the first time. I remember falling face down into the sand, being directed to lie down as the water washed over me. For me, I would point to the final day of shooting the video for "Swirl" as the beginning of this chosen second puberty.
When I think about the concept of puberty, I also think about what that means, becoming comfortable with who you are in your own body. Yes! A transformation in appearance definitely feels like a foray into a second puberty.
I remember when I bleached my hair for the first time, it felt like the start of me really coming into my own. I love the concept of a chosen second puberty, which feels really intrinsic to the queer experience. They completed a full Asia tour in support of their debut LP xDream, which they followed with a performance premiering the album live with Yikii. In 2019, they released a collaborative EP with Changchun-based artist Yikii called Bubble Wrap Armor on unseelie. Puzzled by the hologram around me, I channeled my inner magic potential to escape, and xDream was born. In the summer of 2018, Dasychira toured Europe and Canada after the release of Haptics. An evil voice said, "You are good magicians in your world, but here in my world of magic, you'll have to learn many more tricks to find your way home." They disappeared into the world of illusion, and so did I. Behind the scenery was a mysterious magic box with a drawn curtain." They both stepped into the box through the curtain and disappeared, falling into darkness. One of the magic tricks surprised Donald, and he fell backward, tipping over some scenery. I was struck by the story in the beginning of the game: "One night, Mickey and Donald were practicing for their big magic act. I was immediately inspired by how scary some of the game scenes were, depicting Mickey in a cursed world. After listening to the instrumental, she showed me a Sega Genesis game called World of Illusion. In the early stages of making xDream I was working with Yikii on the song "Pandora," and we would often share inspirations with each other. Disney and Mickey Mouse are recurring motifs across xDream.